First off, sorry for the however many months hiatus I just went on. Life became hectic and blogging became back burner-ed, unfortunately. For those joining me for the first time, hello! And for those who’ve been following along this entire time, I missed you too.
So lately I’ve been questioning many things. Mainly having to do with my lifestyle, career path, fitness regime, monthly budget, if I’m reading enough, location of living, why I just had ice cream for dinner… you know ,the usual things.
I’ve been so stressed about the future and what’s next, that I have been failing to appreciate the moment. I forget to live in the moment and all of the sudden I’m making poor choices, which only adds to my level of anxiety.
Has anyone else thought about something that may or may not happen 6+ months from now, and the reason you’re thinking about it now is because you want to be prepared for whatever pivot you might have to make?
Sounds completely normal right?
Reactive. Reactive. Reactive.
Most humans, including myself, live a life that’s reactive. We handle what’s thrown at us and adjust accordingly. And you know what’s wrong with that?
IT’S EXHAUSTING. I’m so fucking tired.
I’ve been on auto pilot, and so have you.
Lately, I’ve been having this itch to DO SOMETHING BIG. And honestly, I think I was born with this itch…
I’ve been living life waiting for the right opportunity to present its self. Waiting for that once in a lifetime moment to happen, that changes my life into what I’ve always wanted it to be.
If that’s not reactive I don’t know what is.
But you know what? The painful truth is that life is the sum of the decisions we make. Every day we choose. Waiting for that “life changing moment” is a choice. Thinking that things will magically fall into place how I want them to, instead of grabbing life by the horns and making shit happen, is a choice.
We choose to sleep in. We choose to watch TV. We choose to eat fast food. We choose to skip the gym. We choose ourselves second and others first…
I fully understand that some choices are more difficult than others, and as humans we have to do things we don’t necessarily love to put a roof over our heads and food in our stomach, but a difficult decision doesn’t take away the “choice” aspect out of it.
The past few weeks I’ve been bitching and complaining about things in my life I can control. I’ve been sitting on my ass adding negativity to those around me. I want to apologize to those who chose to listen and also thank them for always listening <3
Choosing is scary. Deciding to do something is an uncomfortable feeling, which is why many of us refuse to do it. What if I choose wrong? What if I fail?
But what if you don’t? What if one choice turns your life around…
Today I challenge you to choose. Choose to go to the gym. Choose to wake up early. Choose to smile at the asshole who cut you off on the highway.
Today you start deciding. Because if you don’t start deciding now, you never will.